My eyes are doing this weird thing where it zooms in on things and makes things appear closer and bigger than they are. My goodness I need to get a full 8 hours tonight. Or I’m going to start seeing an alter ego of myself wandering around like in fight club. Like I’m pretty sure this new person I met at UPS is not a real person. It’s me. It’s tripping me out.
i remember a great talk session with a boss back then who was amazing at what they did and always did things that helps everyone out. he was professional, easy going, perfect dream boss. I asked how their day was one time and they were like, “i hate it, i’m here. i’m working. i don’t want to work.” which surprised me because they portrayed someone who loved coming into work everyday. but then he surprised me again and said, “just do what you need to do and do great at it. be remembered for the great things you do. be remembered.” i felt like i was getting his voice tattooed on my brain, except instead of pain, a deep thought surge overwhelmed me to the point i felt sick. i could barely work after that talk with my boss. are we all here for money. is that ALL it’s ever going to be about? thats all i thought about. when is it going to be something else? what is it that i will do in the future that i won’t even think about money anymore?